As the new year looms, matic na yung may pa year-end look back sa mga ganap. I need to make sure na I write something kasi this year was a turning point. Charizzzz

Over the last few years, my health has been on a sort of decline. I’ve had scares, endless hospital trips, tests, appointments at kung ano ano pa. What I didn’t like was spending days as in-patient. I hated being a burden to anyone, especially to my husband.

After my last admission in September, I did everything in my power to keep myself well. Sa madaling salita, itinatawid bawat buwan. Come spring, I had more energy (but still.. symptomatic). So when the boys were planning a camping trip, I thought of giving myself a break (and a reward too) and go for a solo trip. Paris was a no-brainer. Malapit, madali, mura.

Kaso yung 4 days, naging overnight. From Eiffel tower to A&E real quick! Yung thought process ko, mas mahirap maadmit dito, di ako marunong mag french. So, booked another flight then uber direcho sa hospital. I was an emotional wreck, bordering desperation kasi, pagod na talaga ako sa pinagdadaanan ko. Eventually, I had to make an extremely difficult decision (na talagang umiiyak ako sa mga doctor) and opted for something that I have been trying to avoid but will put me out of my misery. Pinagpasa diyos ko nalang, bahala na.

Dahil sa eksena ng April, all I wanted to do for the rest of the year was to be as carefree as possible, trying to make up for the things I missed or didn’t get to do much whilst unwell. Thankfully, napaka supportive ng asawa ko. He accomodated all my requests lalo na sa travel/roadtrip and truly took care of me. He was always positive and encouraging me and ang cheesy pero he was really my rock, and tigas mo bro charizzzzz

On a lighter note, despite the hard times, meron din namang pinaulang blessings. Both our careers blossomed, and I was able to achieve my personal career goal. Very fulfilling cause this is something that I worked hard for, and something na ako. I enjoy working and I like doing my own thing, yung matatawag kong trinabaho ko para sa sarili ko. Same with the hubs, who left the nursing world for a new industry. We have our joint goals but at the same time, we are also working on our individual goals/improvements. I know that in the future when we look back on this, mabibigyan namin ang isa’t isa ng certificate of self appreciation.

This year din, we started a new fitness journey. Opo, nag gygym na kame and di na stockholder ang role namin na tiga bayad lang monthly. We’ve been taking regular classes and using the facilties as often as we can and so far, we can really feel the difference. Nakakatuwa yung endurance ko nowadays and i love boxing. Lahat ng inis at galit ibubuhos sa bag or sparring partner lol. Very therapeutic.

For the first time in a while, I am actually excited to welcome the new year. I have so much hope and motivation within me, and at the same time I am wanting to achieve more for myself, and my family. Also, totally unrelated pero share ko lang din na I have switched to digital bujo/planners this year and nakaka happy magdrawing/sulat ng kung ano ano with matching pictures and graphics and stickers para full experience with evidence yung mga ganap.

To close this, just in case may nagbabasa nitong random hanash ko, hope you have a blessed new year. Dasurv natin ng happiness, good health and a fruitful life. Create and collect more memories kasi balang araw, iyan yung mga babalikan mo.

To myself, sipagan mo pang magsulat at i-document lahat kasi, you always find a sense of comfort re-reading / rewatching these. Enjoy life ❤️

A.