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Hostel Horror

I am currently attending uni on literally the opposite end from where I live. On an average, it would take me 2 hours commute (2.5 hours on bad days) so imagine the stress of waking up on early hours ( a real struggle for a non-morning person like me), braving London rush hour, long hours of lecture then commuting back. Super haggard veh! For this month, since we are scheduled for 3 straight days, I decided I might as well just stay in. I tire so easily now.

I am not usually picky and I don’t mind staying in hostels/bagpackers. I just made sure that it’s near my school and affordable. Lo and behold, I found one which is half way the 2 uni sites which was perfect.

After a really fun class (it was lab day and we played and grew bacteria!), I went straight to the hostel. Didn’t take me long to find it. It was just in front of the train station, along the main road plus there was Sainsbury’s just across. Perfect. Coming in, the reception and initial hallway wasn’t too bad. Checked in, got the key and got directed into the stairs. You know when you see a place or person even and get that bad vibe instantly? I legit had that. I was already contemplating if I made the right decision.

Then I entered a totally empty room ( 2 single beds and 1 bunk bed) and that doubled. My first instinct was to just go home. I sort of convinced myself otherwise and to just ‘man up’. I kept myself busy instead. Watched as many youtube videos as I can, kept facetiming my husband just so I get preoccupied. When I got more comfortable, I ordered dinner from Deliveroo, ate, went back to watching until…

The curtain started moving. I convinced myself that it was just air although I was 100% sure it wasn’t. I carried on with the videos and then the upper bunk felt like someone was laying in and turned to their sides. Take note, I was all alone.

I panicked. I took all my things, ran downstairs and told reception I’m checking out. I was crying and wearing my tights on simultaneously. I didn’t ask for any refund, just my deposit and just rushed out. At the back of my mind, I remember my other classmate saying she was staying at a proper hotel (quite expensive but wth) so I took the next bus, booked a room and took a few minutes to shake the panic off.

What a crazy day!

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Random Snippets #12

Watsap por yu!?

This month has definitely kept me on my toes. Super super busy BUT I am not complaining. All the distractions kept me from thinking of a difficult yet fleeting moment from a few months back. Haaay, life!

I’ve been planning to write about some of the things I’ve been up to in more detail soon but na-sipagan lang ako magblog about a movie we’ve watched literally just now – The Write Moment. It’s a Filipino indi film which stars Jerald Napoles & Valeen Montenegro. This movie doesn’t have the typical pinoy movie twist we’ve all grown up to. Ang simple ng treatment. Not too fussy, not too dramatic. Ang simple ng story but, it sends an important message.

Napaisip lang ako, at some point we all wanted our happily ever after. We all got stuck on the idea to the point na we keep on looking for it from every person we love. I’m not saying it’s bad. It’s ok. It’s normal. And why would you get into a relationship na hindi ka naman masaya in the first place di ba? That’s what I appreciated in the movie. Kasi, hindi pwedeng masaya all the time. Hindi pwedeng nakangiti at nakatawa lang kayong dalawa 24/7. It’s not realistic. In the end, mapapa isip ka, nagkaroon ba ng substance? May naging katuturan ba yung puro happiness lang? Mas naging matibay ba kame? Have we even learned anything? Naging masaya nga ba talaga?

Sabi nga ni Eminem, snap back to reality. Naipasok ko pa talaga yan kasi yan lang naisip ko lol. Ayun nga, reality tells us na that is not what having a relationship is all about. Requirement yung mga trying times kasi it strengthens you and your jowa. It can reveal your true self and can bring out the best (or the worst) in you. Tapos, hindi ba mas sulit yung saya na pagtapos ng lahat ng unos, kayo parin.

Other reality though is, you learn na despite trying, may mga bagay talaga na won’t work. Yung tipong alam mo sa sarili mo na you did everything, you gave it your all. And as hard as it sounds, kelangan talaga minsan mag let go. Yung andami ko talaga nasabi hahah baka akala ng iba humuhugot nako lol. Pero yun nga, despite the heartbreak, it gives you chance to have a fresh start. Who knows, yung fresh start may kalakip na new beginning with someone else di bels?

Ang refreshing lang nung mga ganung story nadaldal tuloy ako. Naalala ko lang, bank pala ako mamaya tapos clocks go forward today so mabibitin ako ng 1 hours na sleep so babush na muna! Next time na yung next na chika ko. Taaaaaaaa!!

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My ‘What if?’

I am currently re-watching How to Get Away with Murder and all I could think of is my childhood dream, my biggest What if – becoming a Lawyer.

Growing up, I witnessed Mama recite the Philippine constitution and quote random articles like it’s engrained in her and like it’s part of our life; After school, I sat at the back of her class and half listened to her lectures about the law and certain legalities; Watching the news became a routine and early on, I developed opinions and my take on certain issues; I enjoyed debating and proving a point; I basically knew from then on that I am going to be a Lawyer someday.

Whar if I really went for it? What if I took Law? What if I became a Lawyer? What if I continued to pursue my dream of becoming a Criminial defense attorney? What if this will work?

Life then happened. Things changed. Priorities surfaced. Practicality won. As much as I wanted to push to make this dream happen, it wasn’t possible at the time. I sort of promised myself that once I’m more settled, I’ll study again and chase this dream.

My career and life path had a major shift which has now led me here. Being in the medical field wasn’t always my first choice but I eventually learned to love it and found a speciality I’m interested in. I am happy where I am right now and I keep thinking had I insisted solely on what I want, I wouldn’t have met the special people I have now and I would be living my life differently. Though I’d like to believe it’s not yet too late and that I still have time, for now I’ll just leave it as a little piece in my heart asking what if?