ACAn’t Forget #1: The Plan

I always fear that someday, I won’t remember the things I’ve done and how it made me feel which is why I started blogging in the first place. Which is also why I wanted to start this new series I will shamelessly associate my name with: ACAn’t forget! (Get it? Char!). Instead of patiently waiting for throwback thursday to share something from the past, I finally found a new excuse!

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It has always been the plan – to go and build a life in California. It seemed so easy and at reach but complicated all at once. There were contradicting paces none of us could figure out. We had different timezones and timelines; My world was a whirlwind while his was stagnation. Looking at those things now with more seasoned eyes, I guess it’s safe to say the plan failed because we weren’t in sync with how to go about it. I am happy and thankful nonetheless. Because the plan will always be a wonderful memory of my youth.

How does this fit in my new blog series? Well because unexpectedly, this time last year, the plan was partly carried out. I was in California. This happened last year but my brain has a way of storing all this information making it look and feel like it just happened yesterday. That’s why I am also just writing about it now lol.

Now that I’m reminscing, I couldn’t help but feel emotional because all those years, the plan has always been there; it has become my guiding force to help me achieve my goals. When it ended, all these plans came crashing and for a moment I felt lost. By some miracle, I never thought there was still a possibility it would happen. Not the way it was originally drafted but still, I was more or less there. Same but different me.

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Random Snippets #13

Watsaporyu?

I couldn’t sleep. As if that was new, lol. Since I’m here, might as well start blurting out random stuff I’ve been thinking about.

– I think that somehow, the month of November has been and is still is the closest to my heart. For some reason, it has left me with nothing but good feels and memories whether from the past, present and hopefully, the future. Tuloy tuloy natin ang sweet November veh. Even the weather is cooperating! I love the wintry feels! <3

– My first term in school is finishing soon but I haven’t started with my essays yet. I may start panicking after this post hahaha!

– I love Scotland. I fell in love with Edinburgh when I first visited in 2014 but for our anniversary, we decided to go the the highlands and everything was so breath taking! Will do a separate blog for this because I want to share some pictures as well!

– I managed to get an elusive Spice Girls ticket but as much as I would want to see them bring my childhood back, half of me wants to just stay at home and just sell it. Still thinking about it though hmmmm..

– I am still in awe of Ed Sheeran’s song writing skills and couldn’t get over the fact the he co-wrote (with Jess Glynne) Little Mix’s Woman like me. It has now become a habit of mine to check who has written these songs I listen to and I’m so impressed!

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Hurry Back

We just watched Bohemian Rhapsody and childhood memories came back crawling. I grew up listening to them. My mom was a huge fan and I remember how every morning, I would be woken up to the sound of ‘Bicycle, bicycle! I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike’.

The movie was fantastic but a part of me tear up when they started singing Love of my life. I kid you not when I say this was my first ever hugot song. I remember crying in a corner when I hear this. It was also my favourite Queen song. Old scribbles from my notes was even related to this song. Gosh, I was so emo at 8 years old.

He wasn’t coming back.

All hope is gone.

This is really happening.

She knew it then, but it was getting harder now.

How can this pain gets worse over time?

Wasn’t she healing? She was just laughing.

Wasn’t she moving on? She was just smiling.

She closed her eyes.

With hands on her chest, she took a deep breath.

Tears started to fall.

She doesn’t know I’m watching.

She doesn’t know that I knew.

Silent sobs hid behind my queen.

Drowning her sorrows, she was listening to Queen.

Curled up in a corner, hoping she can’t be seen.

Decades down the line, the same music still hits me the same. It would be nice to if the band was still here, but it still is nice that their music still transcends even to this generation. Also, I had a bonus of seeing the whole main cast of the movie + Brian May and Roger Taylor when they launched the #QueenCarnaby lights.