I was working non-stop. Regular shifts plus picking up extra shifts; Stressful workload; Demanding patients and family; Understaffed; Lazy staff; I just had a lot going on in my plate and on that one certain day where I was supposed to just sleep it off and be lazy, I needed a breather.

I hopped on the 1000h train to Central London, hoping to find my refuge there. I was hoping this would work cause for the past months that I’ve been going through something big, going there and walking along the busy streets somehow distracted, and nonetheless healed my distorted thoughts.

I thought to myself, why don’t I take my camera and maybe rekindle my hobby in photography.

I was crying in the train. Good thing the seat beside me was empty or else whoever’s sittng beside me would think I was crazy. It was a solid spot though, having a moment in a running train by the window. I got down at Fenchurch Street, decided to hover at Tower Bridge and watch the tourists take pictures/selfies It was a busy day, just as I pictured it. It was perfect. I also found my own little nook in here I guess it’s safe to say that times like these made me feel more human, and normal, and more importantly, it reminded me to slow down and give myself time to get out of the auto pilot mode and feel, breathe.

While having a moment, I also made a list of places I could visit. It feels weird because the more I keep myself busy with new sights and scenes, the more I could think and let go.

And then guess what, I didn’t move at all despite the long list. In my deep thinking, I realized I wanted the bed more than moving. So, I just went home. What a total waste.

In the end, I discovered the real reason why I was such a weirdo. PMS.

-A.

Aca-ptured

11.2012

Finallyyyyyyyyy! In the mood ulit akong chumika at magkwento! :) Senxa na, world emotera months kasi ako lately, so anu mang gusto kong magkwento ng mga ganap, wit ko na nagawa kasi anhedonia!

Maganda ang pasok ng November sakin, yung nung una medyo mahirap, pero, nagbuntong-hininga nalang ako at buong pusong tinanggap ko nalang lahat. (#doublemeaning) Choz! Pero seriously, lugmok ever ako, pero kumbaga sa DABDA, I moved on, got over it kaya ngayong November I’m starting with a clean slate, so GV lang!

Another good news, it’s my vacation leave! Suck eeeeet! Sino ba naman may ayaw ng bakasyon di ba? Kahapon, unang araw ng bakasyon ko, sinigurado kong may katuturan naman yung araw ko, kaya nag charity work ako, nagpuntang library, volunteer work, etc. blah blah blah.

Hahahaha. Yun ung ginawa ko sa panaginip ko! Nagawa ko lahat yun kasi ang haba ng tulog ko! Yung tipong kung pwede lang sana wag na magising para avail! Pero, may mga pangangailangan din ako, so lumafuk din ang ng very very light, dahil, ang project ko ngayong bakasyon ko, ay tanggalin ang belt bag ko!

Pero, nwawala nako sa title ng post ko, mabalik na nga tayo sa Julanis, kanina, medyo ginanahan lang ako.

Habang tumatambay ako sa aming hardin, at ninanamnam ang malamig na simoy ng hangin, biglang jumulanis! So ayun, “Alakam mu y ambrrellah ta mar-rain!”