Aca-nthoughts, Acan’t Forget

02:54

Bigla kong naalala high school! Andaming nangyari, I don’t want to forget everything!

Disclaimer: oversharing posts ahead! Read at your own risk.

… I was a freshman back then pero nabarkada ako sa higher years because of cheering. Sakanila ko nadiscover ang bubblegum flavoured lambanog. I remember how I pretended to like the taste, na kaya ko kahit umiikot na yung sikmura ko.

… I had my first jowa, he was a junior. Sinagot ko over the phone nung 9/11. Kilig na kilig ako. I think he won me over good and funny conversations pero wala nung face to face courtship talaga. I guess uso talaga
yung phone pals nuon. Tanda ko pa number nila, xxx-3733 hahaha. Tulad ng movies, antaas ng expectation ko before pagdating sa jowaan. Kala ko nung sinagot ko, okay na. Kaso parang di siya full relationship experience. More on phone lang pati break up sa phone din. Pero talagang naalala ko after nung tawag na yun, super cry ako sa banyo. Siyempre secret lang na jowa ko kasi hello aga kong humarot lagot ako sa nanay ko. Pero yun nga, parang oa pero I felt na bumigat yung dibdib ko nung nagbreak kame. Tapos todo emote sa friends, lalo na sa inuman. Eventually, nakipagbalikan din siya, and si lola nyo medyo shonga, pumayag naman. It got better and more physical though kasi nakikita nahahawakan ko na siya and to be fair he made an effort naman. Pero bigla nalang din naputol at some point, no formal breakup or anything. Di ko din alam at di na inalam pa.

… Siyempre after ni 3733, ingat na si ate gurl. Di na basta nagpapa apekto sa mga phone pals hahaha. Pumasok sa eksena si xxx-4654. Siguro knows niya yung history sa first kaya ayun mas umeffort. Ang approach, dependable friend, knight and shining armour genern! Tsinaga niya naman ng husto at naka ilang basted din bago nag give in din ang lola nyo. Masaya. Parang first legit relationship and take note, pang teleserye levels ang ganapan lalo na nung nahuli kame ng nanay ko. Di ko kinakaya yung galit at pamamato niya ng cellphone. Nakakaloka. Nagkaroon ng you and me against the world hanash, naglayas pa nga ako. Basta andaming ganap at complications pero yung mismong relationship was good and nafeel ko talaga yung totoong jowa.

… Yung first 2 years, puro lovelife ata inatupag ko hahaha. Pero to be fair, nakabawi naman nung remaining years kasi yung oras ko bukod sa acads, naibuhos naman sa barkada at sobrang thankful ako ngayon kasi naenjoy ko talaga. Yung laging may inuman, tig 10 pesos ang ambagan. Ang uso pa nun na inumin, empe. Tas minsan yung girls, the Bar. Siguro 80% of the time, magkakaroon ng iyakan. Biglang maglalabas ng saloobin, mag eenglish. Tapos, madaming kantahan. Siguro national anthem yung Biglaan ng 6 cycle mind saka yung Masaya ni Bamboo. May designated na bahay inuman, may mga designated din na taga hatid pauwi.  Super stricto ng mama ko pero lagi ko ginagawan ng paraan maka attend lang. May panahon ding naglayas ulit ako, at diko makakalimutan yung mga tulong at payo nila sakin. Kaya siguro nung magccollege na, sobra akong nalungkot kasi andaming mahahalagang alaala with them. Akala ko di ko kakayanin yung next chapter pag wala na sila sa tabi ko.

… Uso pa nuon yung C.A.T, tapos mixed sections. Nagkatoon yung mga grinupo sakin yung mga baturro ng batch. Siyempre challenging pero napakasaya. Di ko makakalimutan yung day na nirequire kame magdala dapat ng mga itatanim na halaman. So siyempre nagassign ako. On the day, wala silang dala so windang ako kasi damay damay na to. So ang ginawa nila, hinugot ba naman yung mga halaman sa kabilang building kaloka! Pero ang mahalaga, pasado na yun ke ser robocop!

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Aca-nthoughts

22:31

I haven’t really done this in a while but I’m happy to have gone outside and looked up – it felt so calming looking at the sky with all it’s twinkling little lights along with the cool breeze and silence. The earth has really been showing off lately. She must have been having her own version of a breather.

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Speaking of a breather, it’s been a while since I’ve had a proper day off work since the beginning of the year. It has been a challenge though stopping myself from checking work emails but so far, I’m making progress. And, tiktok has been keeping me occupied haha. I’ve never felt more tita seeing these jugets and their entertaining videos but I still gave in and made some entries lol. Times like these, I think tiktok has given me less stress compared to other social media platforms. Plus, it’s my new form of exercise.

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I recently had a change of heart. Char! Before, I used to crush on meztizos and the macho ones hahahah but my attraction has now shifted to Koreans! Blame it to K-dramas and K-pop, I am now officially shipping (naaaaks!) two: Jungkook from BTS and actor Park Seo Jun! Haaang cucuuuuuuute! I love Fight for my way super kilig! ❤️❤️

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I’ve randomly cut my hair and got a fringe again. I don’t know why I keep doing this, knowing I’ll regret it again later on hahaha.

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I know we’re on lockdown and stuff but this has made me realise how our lifestyle didn’t really change lol. Prior to all of this, our life has always been work – home – errands and repeat. Every now and then there’s the sporadic travel but nothing really major had to change. I guess this has been to our advantage but I still think of some who struggle with this. I do try to keep in touch but I’m still hopeful that everything will eventually go back to normal.

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Aca-nthoughts

22:48

Nakatambay lang ako dito sa sofa, killing time until I feel sleepy so I just played youtube videos on the telly. Suddenly, this lockdown is making me feel nostalgic so I decided to watch random videos from my account and I happen to click through this:

I made this video in 2017 for our wedding, with the aim of being practical para di na magpa pre-nup shoot and all. Bawas effort and gastos. But now that I’m watching this, di ko maiwasang mapangiti at maisip na buti nalang, inexperience ko yang mga ganap na yan.

Growing up, I didn’t have the luxury of travelling for leisure. Apart from mahal siya, I also live up north which meant napakalayo. Idagdag pa yung only child, only girl aketch so naturally, I wouldn’t be allowed. The only consolation I had was that school and even when I started working, both would send me here and there for trainings or seminars so in a way, nakapag lakwatsa din naman ako. When I moved abroad for work, I took this as an opportunity na mag scrung pag may time and money and it just made me so happy and relaxed. I promised myself na from this point forward, I will spend money on experiences and making memories, kebs na muna sa mga material things.

Buti nalang, ginawa ko yang mga yan.

Now that we’re on lockdown, di ko po maiwasang magisip isip. And looking at these videos, or even going through my albums, alam mo yung feeling na parang uy self, this was a wise move. Di naman ako genius, mayaman or whatever pero yung mga pinagka gastusan kong lakwatsa andami kong nasheshare na lessons to my friends or even random people na nagri-reach out to ask. Andami rin naming napagkekwentuhan ng asawa ko kasi andaming bloopers and fail minsan mapapatanong ka nalang kung ano bang pumasok sa isip mo nung mga panahong yun; It also helped me gain perspective especially about different cultures and lifestyle. I also get to know myself better, and up to which level I can allow myself to be uncomfortable. Ito siguro yung magiging isa sa mga kayamanan ko, yung I allowed myself to see some parts of the world and actually enjoy it. Bonus na yung I get to capture it on pictures/videos. Follow me on youtube charrr!

Hopefully matapos na tong virus na to nang makabalik na ulit sa pageexplore. Of course, I won’t expect that it will be the same for everyone but do give it a try though. Travel, or if di pa kaya, try a new restaurant; Watch a movie or concert, try a new hobby or learn something new. Kahit ano basta maiba lang and para mabreak dim yung monotony. Life is so short, let’s all live it well.

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