Hayst.

04:37

I finally had time see what the hype is all about! We started watching Money Heist around noon yesterday (Saturday) and as of writing, ongoing padin ang lola niyo! Before I go into my unsolicited reflections, I feel like I just have to say this show is BRILLIANT, periodt.

I wasn’t meaning to write anything but I can’t help but reflect on Tokyo’s ganap here in this show. If I watched this show when I was younger I would maybe applaud 2 of the main characters’ love affair but seeing things through a tita perspective, I can’t help but be annoyed. Nakakainis, nakakaloka, napaka selfish, immature, puro pag-ibig, pabigla bigla ng desisyon, di pinagiisipan ang mga bagay. My exact comments whilst watching to the point of feeling my blood boiling over how impulsive and destructive this Tokyo-Rio love affair was. Tapos, napatanong nalang ako sa sarili ko – was I Tokyo when I was younger?

Siguro, eto yung sakit ng ulo na nabigay ko sa mama ko before only 10x more pero not on a heist-barilan levels. At a young age, nothing else mattered kundi love and barkada. Ganun pala ano? You just get really lost in the moment. Puro emosyon, alab ng damdamin. Pero kelangan mapagdaanan kasi at the end of the day, madaming natututunan. Not that I’m regretting my decisions back then because I’m still grateful naman pero alam mo yung mapapa kamot ka nalang sa ulo when remembering everything.

I’m also amazed how much maturity can change one’s perceptions about love ano? Although everything is more calculated now, nakakabilib padin how fearless we can be all in the name of the person we adore. Basta, basta! Dami ko ng hanash lol, tapusin ko na nga lahat to!

Aca-nthoughts

Nayn.

2:07h

Nothing new, still couldn’t sleep with tons of things coursing through my mind. I wish my brain and my emotions would just calm the f down. I need a break, a holiday away from the pressures and responsibilities of adulthood.

Anyway, share ko lang. I usually avoid yung mga ka-negahan posts sa fb but I came across a post and a comment from fb friends and got so annoyed. Let’s just say siya yung typical example of “di marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan“. Masyadong mataas ang nalipad ni girl. Nakakahiya naman sakanya. Pero in fairness, yung kayabangan niya may mga realisations na naibigay sakin.

It’s okay to be proud of your achievements. Siyempre pinaghirapan mo yan eh so go, flaunt it as long as you want. Pero yung tipong you belittle other people’s options or choices just to push na you’re better because anjan ka, nakaka imbyernalize! Just stop.
The harsh reality of life is, kahit nasaan ka pa: Pinas, UK, US, Canada, Ireland, Australia, Middle East – lahat yan may kanya-kanyang struggle at preference; lahat may pros and cons. Just because it worked for you, doesn’t mean it will work for everyone else. Case to case basis yan siszt. Kanya-kanyang swerte sa buhay, kanya-kanyang diskarte. Mapalad ka if you found prosperity sa kung saan ka man ngayon. But it doesn’t automatically mean na it’s horrible sa other places/countries na hindi mo napuntahan. Na you would laugh at other available options and insist na it’s all crap.

Hayyy gazzit moko. Char!

Aca-nthoughts

Wan.

Despite my on and off cringing while browsing through timehop reminding me of my jeje days, it still makes me smile knowing I would eventually find useful gems like this:

I think I may have done so much fire fighting of tragedies and bad days the last few months that I didn’t even have a proper moment to bend, break and grieve for what has gone. The timing couldn’t be more right for this quote to remind me to stop being on autopilot mode and be human again.