Aca-nthoughts

Hae-in yarn?

The past two weeks have been some of the most challenging I’ve faced in a long time. Truly, NKKLK moment ito. Navigating through this turbulent time made me realise a lot of things and for a short period has taught me invaluable lessons —lessons I’ve always known but wish I’ve taken more seriously or acted upon.

It all started with what seemed like a minor health concern—something I thought I could shrug off and power through, like so many times before. But as the days went on, the symptoms didn’t just linger; lumalala siya beh, and I found myself spiraling into a pit of anxiety kasi WTF is happening? This isn’t my normal. Di ko keri etong mga ganap! What began as a nagging discomfort soon turned into sleepless nights and racing thoughts. Every little twinge or pang felt amplified, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that something was seriously wrong. So, I had myself checked.

Tests, blood extractions and several consultations – the dreaded 2-week pathway which on it’s own is already stressful enough. I know because I’ve been through this before. But I found that myself more anxious this time. The future felt uncertain and threatening. I don’t want/ can’t have a queen of tears moment. 🥺. Life is too fleeting and unpredictable.

I’m still not out of the woods yet. The journey is ongoing, and there are still hurdles to overcome. But so far, I’ve heard better news that puts me at ease and gives me hope. And here I am, writing this down, because if I do get over this challenge (or if I forget everything), I want to be able to look back and see how I was during this time. If I can look back on this and see the growth and resilience that carried me through, then I know this time will not have been in vain.

PS. I realised that posting ganaps/photos in real time really helps in backtracking memories and creating a timeline of events. I wish I was as active as my younger self in documenting everything which I will need to improve moving forward.

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01:56 – 062024

I’ve been sneezing non-stop over the last hour. My eyes are starting to swell and nose very runny. Madaling araw na, tulog na lahat tapos saka ako aatakihin ng hay fever. Hence.

While I wait for the medications to kick in, might as well magsulat dito diba? I can’t even remember when and what my last entry was pero sige, brief catch up tayo?

January – celebrated my birthday and also, my 10th year here in the UK. Siyempre, andami kong realisations sa buhay as I age, lalo na how my personality evolved over time. Dagdag narin natin ang pagsheshameless selfie sa CR with a little bit of skin kasi feeling ko I’m in my bomba star era. Chariz!

February – since bomba star era, siyempre kelangan maghanda. I’ve started taking pilates classes and actually loving it, kahit may nginig factor yung ibang steps or positions ba tawag dun.

Believe it or not, continuous padin ang pagigym namin and I’ve come to accept the fact na di nako papayat as before, pero I want to be healthy and have the freedom to do and eat anything kasi may balance.

March was very special. If I haven’t already mentioned before, I looooove scandinavian countries, snow and of course, the northern lights. And for this month, I was lucky I got to travel to Finland with friends where I tried to ski (best in tumba si gorl) and maypakandong kay Santa. Later that month, we went to Iceland (adventure to pero chika ko next time) to see Park Seo Jun and get to taste his cooking. As a bonus? Best in appearance and dance si Madame Aurora Borealis super looove!

April naman is lie low sa lamyerda, but still may pa-activity. We had two shows lined up to watch in West End – Your Lie in April and Spirite Away – both Japanese animè which we love and of course, blown away kame how it was translated into theatre, as in live action chururut. As a wildcard, we also booked to watch The Play That Goes Wrong and we thoroughly enjoyed best in tawa kame kahit english lol.

Si May – may pasabog din. This was hubby’s birth month so as per usual, we went away to have some R&R under the sun pero ang pinaka highlight, si Madame Aurora B. naman and dumalaw sa mismong bahay!

I think fully updated and nakahabol narin ako dito sa blog for my very few avid readers (wow kala mo naman) although alam ko namang this is mainly for me to read in the future. For some reason, di rin pala nagupdate yung domain ko, so it has changed from amazingcharrozcaldos.com to amazingcharrozcaldos.blog na. Anyway, dama ko na si Cetirizine at Otrivine. After 5-6 months ulet, taaaa!

Aca-sabihan

02:08 | ‘24

Happy new year! Ayun oh, blog agad! We already how this goes, sisipagan ko for a few days until unti unting makalimutan. 😂

NY salubong was so much fun. Originally, we had nothing planned. As in pati food, ganap wala talaga. We wanted to just chill at home, maybe order takeaway. But then, our friends who recently migrated here from Singapore invited us over to Centrale since they were staycationing (tama ba yung term ko? Lol). Tambay lang sa hotel, ate, played a game, danced, drunk loads and ayun, gewang gewang si auntie. We did go out to see the fireworks and then konting chika and borlog nadin kaagad. I love that we were all tired and slept right away at 1am.

Just finished watching Gyeongseong Creature and in fairness, I liked it. I also loved seeing PSJ in a medyo different role from his romcom or drama seryes, kacute lang. Bet na bet ko din si ate Han So Hee. Parang siya yung walang keme pero give na give yung performance. Hopefully, may next season pero for the meantime, might need to start a new one or need to pick up one of my TBRs.

Bigla nakong inantok. Kthnksbye!