Year 2.

2 years, my love.

For better – this year, I’ve seen how you’ve grown (I mean about other growth but if you’re thinking physically well yeah, I’ve seen that too and you weren’t alone in that division, lol). You took a leap of faith and changed jobs; you left your comfort zone for more opportunity for learning; your perceptions about human nature matured, which meant you no longer fret about your frustrations because you now understood how people are people; you’ve become more responsible; you’ve accepted the fact that you will always be in charge of feeding me lol;

For worse – In all our years as friends first till we got married, we’ve sailed our roughest sea this year. Although we’ve had our small victories, we’ve also seen losses – the one where you’ve lost a big piece of your heart, one that is irreplaceable and impossible to forget. I’ve seen how you’ve tried to detach yourself from your emotions in front of everyone and still give them your warmest smile. But then, I’ve also witnessed how you bend and break quietly in a corner, ripples of grief flooding your eyes and soul. Feeling helpless and not knowing what to do or how to help. All those times all I could ever wish for was to take away your pain.

When I look back at our vows, I think I now understand the gravity of these promises made and that nothing would come easy. This year taught us about resilience. We are naturally flawed, inconsistent and we can never control what happens. But that’s just how life is and all we could do is to relentlessly march forward. And know that in every step, I am here with you plus, you’re new guardian angel – Mama Melinda. ❤️

Aca-nthoughts, Random Snippets

Random Snippets #23

One of the longest 6 weeks of my life, pero in the end, nga-nga padin. I miss home, at kung gaano kaaffordable magpa hupa ng stress. Yung after a stressful day at work, dederecho nako sa Lyf Center (existing pa kaya yung shop?) sa may San Gabriel to get a 250 pesos combi massage for 1 hour. Pag nasa ulirat pa, sasakay ng tricy ulit papuntang centro sabay bili sa suki kong manggahan/singkamasan then bili ng wintermelon milk tea or zagu black forest grande. Then punta sa paradahan pauwing Caggay for 10 pesos. Kahit overwhelmed at pagod, laban padin kasi pagkain at masahe lang napakalaking tulong na. Bat ba kasi ang hirap tumanda at maghanap buhay anez?

Pero sana naging mas realistic and practical sila sa school ano? I think kaya mas nakakapagod mag adulting kasi none of us has a clue how to do this shit. I mean no one can decode everything but it would’ve been more helpful if na-include sa syllabus about paying your taxes, investing in life insurance, getting a loan, managing stress, how to love your work/colleagues, anong mabangong fabcon, ilang thread count yung masarap higaan at higit sa lahat, pano maging patient at hindi sumabog pag nagkasabay sabay lahat ng ganap. Swerte ng ibang may available guidance. Mahalaga pala talaga yung mga payo ng taong nagdaan na sa mga stages. Pero pano nalang yung mga sinosolo lahat dba? Paano na?

Hay.

Aca-nthoughts

Hayst.

04:37

I finally had time see what the hype is all about! We started watching Money Heist around noon yesterday (Saturday) and as of writing, ongoing padin ang lola niyo! Before I go into my unsolicited reflections, I feel like I just have to say this show is BRILLIANT, periodt.

I wasn’t meaning to write anything but I can’t help but reflect on Tokyo’s ganap here in this show. If I watched this show when I was younger I would maybe applaud 2 of the main characters’ love affair but seeing things through a tita perspective, I can’t help but be annoyed. Nakakainis, nakakaloka, napaka selfish, immature, puro pag-ibig, pabigla bigla ng desisyon, di pinagiisipan ang mga bagay. My exact comments whilst watching to the point of feeling my blood boiling over how impulsive and destructive this Tokyo-Rio love affair was. Tapos, napatanong nalang ako sa sarili ko – was I Tokyo when I was younger?

Siguro, eto yung sakit ng ulo na nabigay ko sa mama ko before only 10x more pero not on a heist-barilan levels. At a young age, nothing else mattered kundi love and barkada. Ganun pala ano? You just get really lost in the moment. Puro emosyon, alab ng damdamin. Pero kelangan mapagdaanan kasi at the end of the day, madaming natututunan. Not that I’m regretting my decisions back then because I’m still grateful naman pero alam mo yung mapapa kamot ka nalang sa ulo when remembering everything.

I’m also amazed how much maturity can change one’s perceptions about love ano? Although everything is more calculated now, nakakabilib padin how fearless we can be all in the name of the person we adore. Basta, basta! Dami ko ng hanash lol, tapusin ko na nga lahat to!