Do you ever miss your old self?

I miss my ‘young, wild, not free but still crazy’ era. I have been looking at old pictures and videos and grabe, I had so much energy. So much life. So much light. So much fun. It’s like I knew that by the time I’d hit 30, I will more or less be tired and my introvert self will take over so ayun, sinulit.

One favourite memory: filed under year 2009, this photo resurfaced. I can recall parts of that night and the rest, well it’s self explanatory. This was roughly a month after the nursing boards – went to Manila. Met up with friends, nag Star City, nag- tambay, anxious with the exam results, heartbroken (7-year itch), basically trying to figure out what’s next. It was such a confusing stage. Next thing I know, napasarap ang kwentuhan, napadami ng bucket at sisig hence, this. My tita self is cringing – ang dumi dumi jan ghorl.

This was me, drunk. But for the record, not drunk enough to be sleeping on the grass ha. Acting lang yan, then unli tawa after. This was a loooong time ago but still feels fresh in my mind. I guess it wasn’t anything grand but the feeling of comfort lang to be with friends during that time really stuck to me. Fun times mga bords (Anye and Chy). <3